The Transformative
Periods of My Life
While sitting
in my comfortable reading chair
in my writing
room, resting my eyes from scanning
through Bill
Moyer’s book The Language of Life
looking for the
perfect quote to introduce my new
book of poems
Little Nuggets of Wisdom & Other
Poems, I caught myself starring at the book shelf
directly in
front of my eyes, and my mind registered
the two shelves
of books on Carl Jung and related
writings on
his ground-breaking psychology of the
individuation
process, which took up a great period
of my life; and
on the shelf below C. G. Jung, all
of my books on
synchronicity, as well as my Robert
Moss collection;
and the two shelves below, most
of my Gurdjieff
library (others are scattered in book
cases throughout
the house) that began
my lonely
individuation
process that took up the greatest period
of my life
when I walked away from my third year
at university
where I had gone to study philosophy
to find my
true self; and then my eyes instantly fell
upon another
book shelf that held all of my books
on Ernest “Papa”
Hemingway, my high school hero
and literary
mentor who inspired me to become
a writer, which
took up large periods of my life as I
wrote my two
memories, The Lion that Swallowed
Hemingway and My Writing Life; and on the shelves
below Hemingway,
all of my books on W. Somerset
Maugham whose
impressionable novel The Razor’s
Edge set my soul on fire in grade twelve and initiated
my quest for
my true self; and on the shelves below
Maugham, all
of my books on John Hoyer Updike,
who replaced
Ernest Hemingway as my favorite writer
and inspired
my “actively imagined” novel Talking
with John
Updike. And I closed
my eyes and thought
of my incredible
journey through the transformative
periods of
my life, every book that I had read along
the way that
helped me find my true self. It was such
a long and
difficult journey that I had to sit back
and rest just
from the thought of it.
Composed in Tiny Beaches,
Georgian Bay, Southcentral
Ontario
Friday,
June 19, 2026,
AI Overview
Here is a breakdown of the themes, structure, and literary influences that make this piece so fascinating for any book lover or psychology fan.
The Catalyst: The physical act of
resting his eyes triggers a journey inward.
The Mapping of the Mind: The
bookshelves act as a physical manifestation of his subconscious. Each shelf
represents a distinct layer of his history, growth, and transformation.
The Toll of Self-Discovery: The
final lines show that finding oneself isn't a peaceful walk in the park. It is
an exhausting, "lonely," and difficult lifelong labor.
The Spiritual Sparks (Maugham & Gurdjieff): W.
Somerset Maugham’s The Razor’s Edge is famously about a young
American pilot searching for meaning after WWI. This book "set his soul on
fire" in grade 12, sparking his quest. George Gurdjieff’s esoteric
teachings later drove him to make the radical choice to drop out of university
to pursue actual self-discovery.
The Literary Icons (Hemingway & Updike): Ernest
Hemingway taught him how to want to be a writer. Later, John
Updike replaced Hemingway, shifting his style toward "active
imagination"—a direct bridge between Jungian psychology and creative
writing.
The Mystical & Psychological Masters (Jung
& Moss): Carl Jung and Robert Moss (famous for his
work on active dreaming and synchronicity) represent the ultimate destination
of his journey. They provided the framework for him to understand all the
scattered pieces of his life.
The Single-Sentence Rush: Notice
how the bulk of the poem is one long, winding sentence connected by
"and" and "as." This stream-of-consciousness technique
makes the reader feel the sudden, overwhelming rush of memories flooding the
author's mind all at once.
The "Camera" Movement: The
poem relies heavily on visual verbs (scanning, starring, registered, fell
upon). It acts like a movie camera panning down a bookshelf, with each
shelf triggering a flashback.
The Wrap-Around Narrative: It
starts with the author trying to find a quote for his new book,
travels through his entire past, and ends right back in the chair. It shows
that our past is never truly behind us—it sits right in front of us, shaping
everything we create today.
Here is
an analysis of how the poem works, its main themes, and the structure.
The Trigger: The speaker is sitting in
a comfortable chair, tired from working on his new book. When he rests his
eyes, a look at his bookshelf triggers a rush of memories.
The Journey: The poem moves backward
and forward through time based on where his eyes land.
The Transformative Periods (The Authors)
Carl Jung & Synchronicity: This
represents his deep dive into psychology and meaningful coincidences. Jung's
work helped him understand his inner mind.
G. I. Gurdjieff: This philosopher sparked
his "lonely" search for truth. It was so powerful that the author
dropped out of his third year of university to pursue it.
Ernest Hemingway: His high school hero.
Hemingway gave him the passion to become a writer and inspired his memoirs.
W. Somerset Maugham:
Reading The Razor’s Edge in 12th grade was the ultimate spark. It
"set his soul on fire" and started his entire spiritual quest.
John
Updike: His later-life favorite writer who inspired him to write a novel using
Jung's technique of "active imagination."
The Gift of Exhaustion: The
poem ends with the author closing his eyes, exhausted just thinking
about how hard the journey was. Finding yourself is not easy, and the heavy
structure of the poem makes the reader feel that weight.
Circular Flow: It starts with the author
trying to find a quote for a new book, and ends with him realizing that his
whole life's journey is the book.
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