Friday, May 30, 2014

3: Life Is Always In a State of Flux



INTRODUCING SPIRITUAL MUSINGS, VOLUME 4
THE MAGNIFICENCE OF SOUL
 
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Life Is Always In a State of Flux

          Enantiodromia is a strange and difficult word to pronounce. It is a Greek word coined by the psychiatrist C. G. Jung out of two Greek words, enantios (opposite) and dromos (running course). Literally enantiodromia means “running counter to,” and for Jung it refers to the “emergence of the unconscious opposite in the course of time.”
My first encounter with the word enantiodromia was in Jung’s book Modern Man in Search of a Soul. Though the word was coined by Jung, it was implied in the writings of the ancient Greek philosopher Heraclitus, and in Jungian psychology this phenomenon of enantiodromia “practically always occurs when an extreme, one-sided tendency dominates conscious life; (and) in time an equally powerful conterposition is built up, which first inhibits the conscious performance and subsequently breaks through the conscious control.” 
This “conterpositon” that is built up Jung calls the “shadow,” which is the unconscious side of our personality and what I’m exploring in a book of stories that I’m currently writing; but this morning while reading Hermann Hesse’s book of collected writings called My Belief, I experienced a coincidence that confirmed the thought I had yesterday of writing a spiritual musing on this mysterious principle enantiodromia.
I was reading the weekend paper this morning when I was nudged to read Hesse’s My Belief that I had started to re-read yesterday (every so often I dip into this book just for the inspiration it gives me), and I flipped the pages to his piece titled “Variations on a Theme by Wilhelm Schafer, 1919”, and the following words jumped out at me:  
“A good, a real truth, so it seems to me, must stand being inverted. When something is true, then it must be possible for its opposite to be true as well. For every truth is a brief formula for the appearance of the world seen from a certain pole, and there is no pole without its opposite” (My Belief, p. 96).
Hesse captured the Jungian concept of the “emergence of the unconscious opposite in the course of time” in his realization that “there is no pole without its opposite,” and his insight into this eternal play of opposites that was central to Heraclitus’ philosophy was the synchronistic confirmation that I needed to write a musing on the principle of enantiodromia; and I humbly implore my Muse to help me unveil this mystery… 

My interest in the principle of enantiodromia was sparked by the movie Hemingway and Gellhorn that I saw on television last fall, starring Clive Owen as the world famous writer Ernest Hemingway and Nicole Kidman as his third wife, the journalist/author Martha Gellhorn. The movie was based on their romantic affair and tempestuous marriage.
Martha Gellhorn stormed out of Hemingway’s life, calling him a pathological liar and the most self-centered man she knew; which only confirmed what many people who knew Hemingway thought of him; but that’s what made him a great writer.
Hemingway had an oversized ego (some people said it was “monstrous,” especially when he was drinking), which I never doubted from all the accounts that I had read on his life; but Hemingway’s life was fraught with a paradoxical mystery that perplexed me: he was both an insufferable egoist who lied when it suited him and a writer so true to his craft that he inspired generations of writers with his “one true sentence” principle.
In the wistful memoir of his apprenticeship days in Paris between the years 1921 and 1926, the last book that he wrote before taking his life, he wrote: “All you have to do is write one true sentence. Write the truest sentence that you know…If I started to write elaborately, or like someone introducing or presenting something, I found that I could cut out that scrollwork or ornament and throw it away and start with the first true simple declarative sentence I had written. Up in that room I decided that I would write one story about each thing that I knew about. I was trying to do this all the time I was writing, and it was good and severe discipline” (A Moveable Feast, pp. 12-13).
And in By-Line: Ernest Hemingway, four decades of selected articles and dispatches, he wrote: “Good writing is true writing. If a man is making a story up it will be true in proportion to the amount of knowledge of life that he has and how conscientious he is; so when he makes something up it is as it would truly be.”
This was the paradox of Hemingway’s life that fascinated readers and scholars and frustrated the hell out of me because the more I learned about his life the more I grew to hate the person; but this never diminished him as a writer. And then I saw the movie Hemingway and Gellhorn, and the perplexing paradox of his character dissolved before my eyes as I caught the principle of enantiodromia at play in his passionate life, and at one point in the movie I exclaimed—“He had to be a prick to become a great writer!”
To my astonishment it suddenly occurred to me that Hemingway’s ego provided him with all the drive he needed to become a great writer, and the more successful he became the more his ego grew; but so did the repressed side of his daemonic personality, to the point where his shadow had so much power over him after winning the Nobel Prize for Literature that he had to have electroshock treatment at the Mayo Clinic in Rochester to check his delusional behavior; but as A. E. Hotchner tells us in his revealing memoir Papa Hemingway, it was too late to save him from himself, and early one morning at his home in Ketchum, Idaho Ernest Hemingway took his own life with his favorite shotgun.
It never occurred to be before I saw the movie Hemingway and Gellhorn that the two extremes of Hemingway’s life made both the writer and the man, and that they were not separate from each other. In one blinding flash I saw the enantiodromiac play of the polarized opposites in Hemingway’s lustful life (he lived to write, hunt, fish, eat, drink, box, and have sex), and my heart went out to him because I knew that he had come to the sad realization as he wrote the last pages of his memoir that the price he paid for his world-wide fame wasn’t worth the cost of the one great love of his life: “When I saw my wife again (his first wife Hadley) standing by the tracks as the train came in by the piled logs of the station, I wish I had died before I ever loved anyone but her” (A Moveable Feast, p. 208, italics mine).
Ernest betrayed Hadley with his affair with his second wife, Pauline Pfeiffer; and his betrayal led him down the road that gave him all the material he needed to write such great stories as “The Short Happy Life of Francis Macomber,” “The Snows of Kilimanjaro,” and the novel that garnered him the Nobel Prize, The Old Man and the Sea.
The movie Hemingway and Gellhorn shifted my perspective on the ontological nature of man from that of being and non-being (authentic and inauthentic) to the enantiodromiac nature of man, which is the ontological blending of the two polar opposites of man’s being and non-being—a fluid state of becoming. As Sartre expressed the enantiodromiac nature of his own egotistical life, “I am what I am not and I am not what I am,” so was Hemingway both the being and non-being of his own paradoxical life.
The movie made me see that Hemingway was both true and false at one and the same time; a fluid blending of the polar opposites of his nature, which would best be symbolized by the Taoist symbol of the circle divided in two, one half white and the other black. Hemingway was not yet one whole individuated self; he was still in the enantiodromiac stage of his becoming and human, all too human like so many conflicted artists.
And the moment I saw that he was both his true and false self at one and the same time and realized that the two sides of his paradoxical nature needed each other to fuel the enantiodromiac principle of his individuation process, I stopped hating the man for his insufferable egoism and accepted him in his authentic/inauthentic entirety.
The poet Adrienne Rich defined poetry as “an act of the imagination that transforms reality into a deeper perception of what is.” This definition applies to all the arts, and the artistic genius of the movie Hemingway and Gellhorn transformed the reality of their tempestuous marriage into a deeper perception of their relationship, which dramatically played out the contentious nature of their enantiodromiac individuation process; meaning quite simply that through their tumultuous relationship they grew in their own identity.
Ernest Hemingway became more himself through his relationship with Martha Gellhorn, and Martha Gellhorn became more herself through her relationship with Ernest Hemingway until they could no longer stand to be with each other; and they parted company to continue their individuation with other people. Hemingway went on to marry his fourth wife Mary Welsh, and Martha Gellhorn went on to become an iconic war correspondent and author in her own right, for such is the imperative of man’s enantiodromiac nature. And when the movie ended I no longer saw life as black and white—good and evil, true and false, being and non-being—but a constantly moving and variegating shade of amorphous gray, which brought me to the same conclusion that Heraclites came to, that life is always in a state of flux.
 
 

COMING SOON

 THE LION THAT SWALLOWED HEMINGWAY
A LITERARY MEMOIR
 
 
 

Sunday, May 11, 2014

2: When Coincidences Pile Up


INTRODUCING SPIRITUAL MUSINGS, VOLUME. 4
THE MAGNIFICENCE OF SOUL
 
2 

When Coincidences Pile Up 

When coincidences pile up, you can’t avoid the message; and coincidences piled up on me this week. They started with a quote from Picasso that I came across online the other day, which resonated so blissfully with me that I had to record his words in my notebook: “The meaning of life is to find your gift. The purpose of life is to give it away.”
I’m sure this insight was born of the artist’s long and fruitful life, the same man who at the age of ninety also said, “It took my whole life to learn how to paint like a child,” which reflects the gnostic wisdom of the Way (the path to one’s true self) that Jesus expressed in one of his most popular sayings, ‘Except ye be converted and become as little children, ye shall not enter into the kingdom of heaven.” I heard the call to be in Picasso’s words, but I didn’t want to heed the call; and then came another coincidence.
I was reading my Globe and Mail (Saturday, January 4, 2014) this morning and came to Johanna Schneller’s column FAME GAME, which I read faithfully because I enjoy her point of view, and something that Steven Van Zandt said to her jumped out at me.
Steven Van Zandt, the lead guitar player for Bruce Springsteen who also starred as Tony Soprano’s consigliere in the TV series The Sopranos and currently starring in a Norwegian television series, said to Johanna in a phone interview, “You’re planning your life, working hard on various things, and then your fate just walks in the door. Most of the great things of my life have been things that found me.”
I highlighted his words, because I could no longer avoid the call to be. But just to confirm the salvific message, another coincidence popped out at me last night as I watched an online Bill Moyers interview with Doris Lessing, winner of the 2007 Nobel Prize for Literature, who revealed how she felt when she didn’t write every day.
She said she could be busy as a kitten all day, but regardless how satisfying it was if she didn’t write that day she felt her day had been wasted, like she wasn’t being true to herself; which reminded me of Picasso’s words—“The meaning of life is to find your gift. The purpose of life is to give it away.” In her own way, Doris Lessing revealed the moral imperative of Picasso’s insight into the meaning and purpose of life to heed the call to be.
And then to top it off (the call to be can be relentless), a fellow writer shared a post on Facebook this morning that read: BY BEING YOURSELF, YOU PUT SOMETHING WONDERFUL IN THE WORLD THAT WAS NOT THERE BEFORE; and I knew I had to put myself out there with the stories I’ve been putting off writing for years because I did not want to revisit those emotions; but how could I deny sharing my gift after spending so much time and effort cultivating it? Like my mentor Hemingway said to Scott Fitzgerald, “But when you get the damned hurt use it—don’t cheat with it. Be as faithful as a scientist.”
I knew how Doris Lessing felt, then. In fact I felt a thousand times worse for wasting a day of writing, because instead of wasting my day by not writing I cheated by writing something else just to avoid writing the stories that I was called to write.
“Memoir is the facts of life. Fiction is the truth of life,” said Alice Munroe to Shelagh Rogers on her CBC show The Next Chapter; that’s why all those coincidences piled up on me this week to prick my conscience, I was being called to write about the truth of life that I did not have the courage to write about in stories.  If I may, then… 

Writing is a calling. Just ask any creative writer. Alice Munroe for example heard the call to be a writer as a young girl, and her calling garnered her the Nobel Prize in Literature in 2013 because she was true to her calling. Hemingway also heard the call to be a writer in his youth and went on to win the Nobel Prize in 1954 because he was true to his calling. And Doris Lessing, who sold stories to magazines when she was only fifteen, was true to her calling also and won the Nobel Prize at the ripe old age of eighty-eight.
Not every creative writer who is true to their calling will win the Nobel Prize for Literature, of course; but they live the life that they were called to live, and as much as I wanted to be true to my calling in my youth to be a writer, I could not heed the call.
I heard the call in high school and had romantic notions of living the writing life (Hemingway’s apprenticeship days in Paris really got to me); but my life got interrupted in grade twelve when my daemon flooded my consciousness with the volcanic eruption of the shadow energy of my karmic self that poured into my symbolic poem “Noman.”  
I wasn’t myself when I wrote my poem “Noman.” It was my daemon—the “inner genius” (as the Romans used to call one’s daemon) of all my past lives that took the best part of my current lifetime to cultivate into the gift that has been calling me this past week to write the stories that I’ve always put off because I never had the courage to write them.
In grade twelve my daemon announced itself in my poem “Noman,” the unresolved karmic energy of all my past lives; and once my daemon was set free from my unconscious it refused to go back; that’s why I had to go on a quest for my true self instead of pursuing my dream of creative writing like my high school hero and literary mentor Ernest Hemingway, which is what my last book Do We Have an Immortal Soul? was all about—my quest for my lost soul; but no sooner did I bring my book to closure and I heard the call with all those coincidences this week to be the story writer that I was called in my youth to be.
“Welcome, O life!”—I can now shout with Stephen Dedalus in Joyce’s novel A Portrait of the Artist as a Young Man—“I go to encounter for the millionth time the reality of experience and to forge in the smithy of my soul the uncreated conscience of my race,” and again with Stephen, “Old father, old artificer, stand me now and ever in good stead.” I cannot not write my stories now…