Saturday, January 26, 2019

One Rule to Live By: Be Good, Chapter 34: Taking a Hiatus from Writing this Summer


CHAPTER 34

Taking a Hiatus from Writing this Summer

“The most essential gift for a good writer is a
built-in, shockproof shit detector.”
—Ernest Hemingway

          “Set your house in perfect order before you criticize the world,” said professor Peterson in Rule 6 of his 12 Rules for Life, and though I may not have my metaphorical house in as perfect order as I long for it to be, I work on myself daily; but I do have house-responsibilities that I have neglected for years, starting with painting the house which I began last summer but never got to finish, and some personal health issues to attend to (dental work, losing some weight, and, despite my heart condition, try to get into better shape). And I have a stack of books to read for this story; so, I’m going to take a hiatus from writing this summer and just do some editing, and probably write the odd musing, because when my oracle calls for a spiritual musing I have to write it because they expand the horizons of my individual way; and as for criticizing the world, I’ll leave that for my muse to work through…

Penny went to work yesterday morning (she’s a Hallmark rep), and after she did her work at her Collingwood stores, she was nudged to go the Georgian Downs casino in Innisfil, just south of Barrie. The casino gods were good to her, and she came home with another win (eight hundred dollars this time) which totally surprised me, because last week she was also nudged to go to the casino and won enough to cover the purchase a new mattress and box spring for our spare bedroom that she kept putting off.
Out of curiosity, she had gone online to see which stores in Barrie offered the best deal, and she settled on Mike the Mattress Guy, which, coincidentally, was on Mapleview Drive on her way to the Georgian Downs casino in Innisfil.
“Hi Mike,” she said, with a wave her hand on her way to the casino. “Maybe I’ll see you on the way back.” Which she did, and they delivered the mattress and box spring two days later, with no delivery charges; so, it came as another surprise when she pulled into the driveway yesterday with another I-can’t-believe-it smile on her face. “I got you some gravity money,” she said, and handed me four hundred dollars. “Half for you and half for me,” she added, with a beaming smile. And then she went to the car and came back with a box of books that I had ordered from Amazon. “I said to myself on the way home, wouldn’t be nice if O’s books came in today?” she said. “They weren’t supposed to come in till tomorrow, but I thought I’d check the mail box just to see. Now you have your gravity money and new books to read. It’s been a good day for the O and Penny Lynn, wouldn’t you say?”
“Our little corner of joyful plenitude just keeps getting better and better,” I said, with a tear in my eye; and I got up and kissed her.
“Gravity money” is a concept I came up with twenty-some years ago, drawn from my belief in “The Mathew Principle” (taken from Christ’s Parable of the Sower, Math. 13: 12: “For whosoever hath, to him shall be given; and he shall have more abundance…”), which can simply be expressed as like attracts like, or much gathers more, and I make a point of carrying three or four hundred dollars of gravity money in my wallet, not just for emergencies, but because I believe in the spiritual law of attraction (The Secret, a best-selling book by Rhonda Byrne that was also made into a movie, was based on the law of attraction); and, coincidentally, Penny had just asked me the day before she was nudged to go to the casino again how my gravity money was holding out, and I told her that I had to dig into my gravity money the last few times I went into Midland to pick up my weekend papers and groceries. I had overspent our weekly grocery money and had to dip into my gravity money; and, as “luck” would have it, yesterday Penny replenished my gravity money when she came home from the casino because I was down to forty dollars. Go figure!

Professor Peterson’s ponderous tome Maps of Meaning: The Architecture of Belief (over 500 larger-than-normal pages and in smaller print) had arrived the week before from Amazon.ca, which was where I had to order it from because Amazon.com did not have it, and I was well into it already (it’s not the easy read that 12 Rules for Life is and demands close attention), and the box from Amazon.com that Penny brought home along with her casino winnings contained the books that I felt compelled to read this summer because I had to digest the authors that had such a powerful influence on Jordan Peterson’s journey of self-discovery: The Will to Power, by Friedrich Nietzsche. Basic Writings of Nietzsche, edited and translated by Walter Kaufman, which included: The Birth of Tragedy, Seventy-five Aphorisms from Five Volumes, Beyond Good and Evil, On the Genealogy of Morals; The Case of Wagner, and Ecce Homo; Fyodor Dostoevsky’s novels Demons and The Idiot, plus Great Short Works of Fyodor Dostoevsky, which included: Notes from Underground, The Gambler, A Disgraceful Affair; The Eternal Husband, The Double, White Nights, A Gentle Creature, and The Dream of a Ridiculous Man; a collection of stories called Great Short Works of Leo Tolstoy, which included: The Death of Ivan Ilych, The Cossack,; Family Happiness, The Devil, The Kreutzer Sonata, Master and Man, Father Sergius, Hadji Murad, and Alyosha the Pot; and of course, The Gulag Archipelago, abridged version, authorized by the author Aleksandr Solzhenitsyn; plus a book strongly recommended by professor Peterson which I did not have in my personal library on C. G. Jung: The Origins and History of Consciousness, by Erich Neuman, with a forward by Jung. An impossible amount of  reading for one summer, but I hope to read what I can just to be true to my mentor’s literary credo that credits his iceberg theory with leaving out of a story only what the writer knows from experience, which gives the story it’s emotional impact. As Hemingway explained his iceberg theory of writing to George Plimpton for the Paris Review, speaking about his novel The Old Man and the Sea:

“I’ve seen the marlin mate and know about that. So I leave that out. I’ve seen a school (or pod) of more than fifty sperm whales in that same stretch of water and once harpooned one nearly sixty feet in length and lost him. So I left that out. All the stories I know from the fishing village I leave out. But the knowledge is what makes the underwater part of the iceberg.” (Ernest Hemingway on Writing, edited by Larry W. Phillips, from GEORGE PLIMPTON, “An interview with Ernest Hemingway, The Paris Review 18, Spring 1958).

I’ve already read something by all of these authors (except for Eric Neuman), but not enough to give my book One Rule to Live By: Be Good all the literary gravitas that it deserves for maximum emotional impact on the reader—as if the incredible story of own journey of self-discovery doesn’t have enough existential (and metaphysical) density!
But reading more Tolstoy, Nietzsche, Dostoevsky, and Solzhenitsyn will deepen my consciousness of the unbearable anguish of their existential predicament (and Jordan Peterson’s), which will then be “implied” (as Hemingway believed) in my story One Rule to Live By: Be Good and speak more impactfully to the resolution of the existential predicament of our crazy modern world that Jordan Peterson addressed with disarming honesty in his character-building book 12 Rules for Life: An Antidote to Chaos.  
But if I don’t finish reading these books before I get back to One Rule to Live By: Be Good (which I seriously doubt), I’ll finish reading them whenever I can. After all, who’s to say how much gnostic gravitas a book needs to win a reader’s confidence?
Until the leaves turn color, then…







Saturday, January 19, 2019

One Rule to Live By: Be Good, Chapter 33: Message from the Woodpecker


CHAPTER 33

Message from the Woodpecker

“Synchronistic events urge upon us a view of the world
as a unified field in which one’s own experiences and actions
are fundamentally connected to the experiences
and actions of others.”

Synchronicity and the Stories of Our Lives
—Robert H. Hopcke

When something out of the ordinary happens in our day, it means that life is trying to get our attention. Life uses the anomalous experience to tell us something we need to know to further and deepen our understanding of whatever it is that needs our attention (this is why I call the symbolic language of life the omniscient guiding principle of life), like the odd experience I had the other morning when I was working on my chapter “Dr. Peterson’s Jungian Gift to the World.” I needed to see the deeper implications of my chapter.
It’s not uncommon for me to hear a woodpecker pecking on a tree in our front yard, as I just did this morning when I began this chapter; but the other morning the pecking was so different and persistent that I had to look out my window to see what it was all about.
I looked at the usual trees, but I couldn’t spot where the pecking was coming from; and then, to my surprise and wonder, I saw a large woodpecker with a red patch on its head perched on the window ledge of the driver’s door of our Honda Civic parked in our driveway just below my writing room above our double garage, hanging on as if for dear life but so fascinated by the image it saw of itself in the car door mirror and its reflection in the car window that it was fixated on what it saw, and it pecked the mirror out of position (as Penny learned later when she got into the car to go to work); and I stared at the woodpecker glancing from the mirror to the window, back and forth, pecking and not pecking, totally bewildered.
“If that isn’t a symbol, nothing is!” I said to myself, and broke into a mirthful chuckle; and I watched the woodpecker as it’s neck frantically turned from mirror to window, pecking and staring until it got fed up and flew off ono the trunk of the nearest tree, which happened to be the big oak that shades our front deck where I do a lot of reading, and then it flew off.
I have a book by Steven D. Farmer, Ph.D., a shamanic practitioner, ordained minister, licensed psychotherapist, and former college professor with over thirty years experience as a professional healer and teacher, and whenever Penny and I have an anomalous experience with nature’s creatures we check out his book to see what the symbolic meaning of their appearance may mean; so, I took out Animal Spirit Guides and looked up woodpecker.

“If WOODPECKER shows up, it means: A storm is brewing, either literally or metaphorically; but have faith, as you are protected no matter what. It’s a good time to do some drumming and/or rattling, whether on your own or with a group of friends. You’re entering into a time of abundance and plenty. Go to a place of Nature and lie on your back on the ground, breathe slowly and steadily, and see if you can feel Mother Earth’s heartbeat. Pay particular attention to your own cycles and rhythms and do your best to honor them by aligning yourself with them, rather than being contrary to them” (Animal Spirit Guides, by Steven D. Farmer, Ph. D., p. 405, bold italics mine).

I shared my experience with Penny when she came into my room for her morning coffee; and as we talked, we set free what the language of life was trying to tell me with its message from of the woodpecker. (I’m amazed at how often our morning conversations have connected dots that I would never have seen, proving for me over and over again the miracle of the Logos in honest conversation!) “It has to be telling me something about the chapter I’m working on,” I said, baffled by the message.
“What’s your chapter about?” Penny asked.
“Essentially, it’s about how Jordan Peterson’s message has connected thousands of his young followers with their own life story. Peterson is following in Jung’s footsteps, because Jung was the first to discover that we all have a life story that drives us to become what we are meant to be; but most of us get stuck. Jung helped people get unstuck, and that’s what Jordan Peterson is doing with his message to the world. That’s why he was called by life.”
“How does one get stuck?” Penny asked, cutting to the quick.
“Debilitating life traumas, like losing one’s job or a bitter divorce. But basically, too much shadow,” I answered, with no need to explain further because she was more than familiar with my work (Penny edits and proofs and formats my books for publication on Lulu). “That’s the problem with our crazy world today, too much shadow—THAT’S IT!” I exclaimed, catching the meaning of the woodpecker’s message.
“What?” Penny asked, startled by my epiphany.
That’s the message! The woodpecker was puzzled by its own reflection!” I said, totally awakened to the message now. “The woodpecker didn’t know that its reflection was him—or her, as the case may be; and neither does the world know its own reflection. That’s what Carl Jung brought to our attention, and now Jordan Peterson is doing the same with his message to the world. I’ve got a quote in one of my synchronicity books that speaks to this, which I can look up later; but do you remember the spiritual musing that I wrote on the bread maker we got from Tony last summer?”
“Wasn’t that something?” Penny said, with a big smile. “Why?”
“That’s just how life works for us, sweetheart,” I replied, with a chuckle. “When we need something, life comes to our assistance. We needed a new bread maker, and life provided. And don’t forget the voice that told you to go to the casino; not once, but two or three times. We needed money for unexpected expenses, and life provided. God, life is mysterious. Well, I couldn’t see the deeper implications of the chapter I was working on, so life sent me a woodpecker to inform me. That’s why it behaved so strangely.”
“What was the woodpecker’s message?” Penny, in all her innocence, asked.
“It’s all about self-reconciliation,” I replied; but I didn’t want to explain further until I had finished writing my chapter on Dr. Peterson’s Jungian gift to the world, because my high school hero and literary mentor had taught me to never talk about something you’re going to write about because it will lose its magic, like a butterfly losing the dust on its wings.
But just to make the point about how the omniscient guiding principle of life works in our life (and everyone’s life for that matter, even if they aren’t aware of it), let me quote the spiritual musing that I wrote on our new bread maker coincidence that I posted on my Spiritual Musings blog Saturday, September 30, 2017:

 The Bread Maker Coincidence,
and Sharon’s Comeuppance

In our house, we call her Sharon. She’s Murphy’s nasty sister, the Murphy of “Murphy’s Law.” As I joked with our neighbors one day when they walked over with a glass of wine to join us on our deck, “If you think Murphy’s bad, wait until you meet his sister Sharon. She’s ten times worse than her brother.”
Murphy’s Law states that if anything can go wrong, it will; and to make the point with our neighbors that our life had really been thrown off kilter the past few weeks, starting with the stupid accident I got into with our Honda Civic, which I explored in my spiritual musing “The Old Trickster,” I had to kick Murphy’s Law up a notch; that’s how his nasty sister Sharon came into being.
Well, Sharon struck again this past week, following in her brother footsteps, starting with the leak in Goober’s new tank. Goober is our goldfish, which we brought with us when Penny and I moved to Georgian Bay fourteen years ago, so Goober is old as goldfish go; and Penny got Goober a new tank a few months ago at Walmart in Wasaga Beach, regretting that she did not get the larger tank which was only a few dollars more; and then our bread maker died the other day when I put on dough for pizza; and the following morning our coffee maker sputtered in that familiar way that coffee makers do when they’re about to give up the ghost; so, we had to replace all three items, and Penny and I went shopping Sunday in Midland after we treated ourselves to a late breakfast at Captain Ken’s in Penetanguishene.
Penny had gone on Amazon to check out bread makers, so she had a good idea of what she wanted; but there wasn’t much selection at Canadian Tire in Midland, and what they did have were too pricey for our budget; so, we went to Walmart and came home with a larger tank for Goober and new coffee maker but no bread maker, and Penny decided to order one from Amazon. But when we got home, Murphy’s nasty sister stepped in when the garage door wouldn’t open when I pressed the remote control affixed to the sun visor of the car. I tried several times, and when I went in to check I saw that the screws holding the bracket attached to the automatic door-opening track had ripped loose and had to be re-screwed, which I had done twice already, and this final indignity was like a slap in the face; but strangely enough, this set into motion the merciful law of divine synchronicity, and Sharon’s comeuppance…

I love coincidences. I look forward to them every day, and I’m always tickled with joy when they happen because you cannot plan a coincidence. Like Murphy’s Law and his nasty sister Sharon’s Revenge, coincidences have a mind of their own, and they only happen for a good reason; and that’s what I’d like to explore in today’s spiritual musing.
Because I’ve been engaged with the synchronicity principle most of my life, which was fully realized when the merciful law of divine synchronicity introduced me to a street in Tiny Township, Georgian Bay, named after me, STOCCO CIRCLE (my surname is Stocco) where Penny and I built our new home fourteen years ago, I’m not surprised when the dots for a new spiritual musing begin to connect, because that’s how the synchronicity principle works in the service of soul’s imperative for wholeness and completeness, and something that Zen poet Jane Hirshfield said about her relationship to poetry in Bill Moyers book Fooling with Words, A Celebration of Poets and Their Craft, caught my attention the other morning when I felt “nudged” to read Moyers book again; and as I always do when something speaks to me, I highlighted the passage: “Sometime I think that poems use us in order to think, to do their own work,” said Jane Hirshfield. “You know, most of the time I feel as if I am in the service of the poem—a poem isn’t something I make, it’s something I serve.”
And herein lies the mystery of the synchronicity principle that Jane Hirshfield failed to see, that not only is she in the service of her poetry, but that the spirit of poetry, what I call “it” in the poem I wrote that she inspired, serves her no less than she serves the spirit of poetry, the omniscient guiding principle of life that serves every soul in their destined journey through life—


She almost has “it” but does not quite
know it; another experience, another
poem, another nanometer closer to “it.”
Something she said gave her away:
“Most of the time I feel as if I am
in service of the poem,” but not until
she sees that “it” is in equal service
to her will she have “it” and be
whole and complete.


Being a writer compelled to write, I know what Jane Hirshfield meant by saying that sometimes she feels like she is in the service of her poems, because when I’m called to write a poem I often do not know what the poem wants to say, thus affirming Hirshfield’s insight that our poems do our thinking for us (as do my spiritual musings, but with less mystifying imagery); but what is the poet serving if not one’s own destined purpose to wholeness and completeness?
A poem shines a light upon one’s path, making one’s way easier because it brings one’s outer journey into harmony with one’s destined purpose to wholeness and completeness, and coincidences are life’s way of confirming the natural harmonization process of inevitable self-reconciliation; but what does this have to do with Murphy’s Law and Sharon’s Revenge?
Aye, there’s the rub; because life has a way of throwing a monkey wrench into the gears of our life. But how can we expect our life to run smoothly all the time when there are built-in faults and obsolescence into the human condition?
If something can go wrong, it will; and our bread maker had to wear out eventually, as did our coffee maker, so why be surprised when they do? We didn’t expect our fish tank to spring a leak so soon after our purchase, though; but the fatigue-factor built into everything eventually catches up to us, and our tank sprung a leak because the fault was in the assembly, thus affirming Murphy’s Law that if anything can go wrong, it will. And our bread and coffee makers had a limited life span, so there shouldn’t have been any surprise there either. But because these items gave up their ghost in such close temporal proximity to each other (the superstition of three “bad” things happening in a row), we attach some kind of nefarious meaning to their occurrence. But there’s nothing sinister about built-in defects and obsolescence; that’s just the way life is.
And as to our garage door, the final indignity, I should have seen it coming because I knew that the metal of the door was too thin for the screws to hold indefinitely (a manufacturing fault), which was why I decided that this time I would fasten a ¾ 6 x 12 inch piece of plywood to the door to fasten the screws to that held the bracket attached to the automatic track; but I didn’t have a piece of plywood, and I was going to walk over to my neighbor Tony’s place later because I knew he would have it, as well as the screws; and that’s when the remarkable coincidence with the bread maker happened

Penny went for a walk around STOCCO CIRCLE after we brought our new fish tank and coffee maker and other sundries into the house, and I sat on the front deck to read my Sunday Star just to pause and catch my breath; but when Penny came back from her walk, she said to me: “Tony’s home. He’s out in his garage.”
“I’ll go over and see if he has a piece of plywood and some screws,” I said, and Penny went into the house. But unbeknown to me, while I was talking with Tony in his garage Penny had gone online to select and order a new bread maker from Amazon.
I rode my bike to Tony’s and saw him standing by his work bench studying something that was making a funny but familiar sound. I greeted Tony and asked what he was doing, and he told me he was trying to figure out what that unit he was studying was.
“That’s a bread maker,” I said, “and it’s supposed to work like that.” Tony had the unit plugged in but thought that it was malfunctioning because the little paddle that kneaded the bread dough wasn’t revolving as he thought it should; it pulsed, revolving interruptedly.
Tony was cleaning out his garage and back-yard shed and old lawn chairs and other collectables from under his back deck that had been there for years and loading everything onto his trailer and then he was going to make a trip to the dump, that’s why he was checking out that appliance which just happened to be a perfectly good bread maker that an Italian lady for whom he had done a small job had given to him a few years ago, and he was going to throw it away because he didn’t know what to do with it.
“It works just fine, Tony,” I said. “Maybe Maria can use it?”
A widow also, Maria was Tony’s second life companion (his first was an alcoholic and didn’t’ work out); but Maria was old fashioned, and she kneaded her dough by hand, that’s why Tony offered it to me, and I was strongly “nudged” to leave my bike and carry the bread maker over to our house after quickly telling Tony why I had come over. He did have a piece of plywood and screws, but I wanted to surprise Penny first with the remarkable coincidence of the bread maker that Tony had just given me.
Penny was in her office upstairs, and as soon as I walked into the house, I shouted up to her: “Have you ordered the break maker yet?”
“I’m just about to,” she said.
“Well don’t!” I shouted. “Come on down here. I got a bread maker from Tony!”
Penny couldn’t believe the coincidence. She had just taken her Master card out and was about to order the new bread maker when I shouted up to her not to, and after giving the bread maker (which was a higher end model called Bread Chef) a thorough cleaning, she put on a batch of dough to make fresh buns for dinner; and while she was doing that, I went back to Tony’s and explained my garage door problem, and being such a good neighbor Tony walked over with me and sized up the problem, and together we got the automatic garage door opener working properly (plus another little job), and then we sat on the front deck and had a nice cold beer, and that’s how Sharon got her comeuppance.

———

          As ironic as it may be, in the woodpecker’s message I saw how the archetypal shadow of our crazy modern world was getting its comeuppance with Jordan Peterson’s no-nonsense message of self-reconciliation that he was called upon by life to give to the world through his international bestseller 12 Rules for Life and book tour talks throughout North America, Europe, and Australia, which sparked such an interest in his ponderous Maps of Meaning: The Architecture of Belief that it spiked up to the Amazon bestseller list; and when the woodpecker’s message finally sunk in, something I read in David Richo’s book, The Power of Coincidence: How Life Shows Us What We Need to Know, came to mind, and I went to the assigned book shelf in my writing room to look it up:

            “Perhaps all is happening in life just as we intend. Then suddenly we meet someone, or find out something, or have an accident, or hit bottom and our world spins in a new direction that ultimately makes all the difference. Those unexpected events beyond our control are the forces of synchronicity that make us who we are—and who we were meant to be.
            “Synchronicity is a mind-boggling and sometimes eerie rendezvous between the world and our inner selves. Something happens in the external world and it fits exactly with what we need right now, showing that our human nature and mother nature are two sides of the same coin. In nature, each season produces just the conditions that the ecology and the earth require for its evolutionary growth. Likewise, in our human story, we keep finding just what we require so we can evolve as psychologically healthy and spiritually aware beings. Synchronicity comes to us as an assisting force in this evolution. We are helped in finding ourselves and we help others find themselves. Thus, synchronicity contributes to the joyous fulfillment of our personal destiny in an always luminous world that longs for more light” (The Power of Coincidence, by David Richo, Ph.D., p. 2, bold italics mind).

          Was it a coincidence that professor Peterson stepped up to the plate to defend free speech and was instantly catapulted onto the world stage with his book 12 Rules for Life: An Antidote to Chaos, and was he called by life to answer the angry question of my poem that I wrote the year before which spoke for myself and the collective unconscious?
 “What the hell is going on out there?” I asked, and professor Peterson provided an answer that satisfied my desperate need to know, and not only my need to know but the collective need of the world to know what the hell was going on out there; hence the overwhelming attention that Jordan Peterson was getting with his book and talks and online lectures, because, as my oracle informed me in my spiritual musing,coincidences are life’s way of confirming the natural harmonization process of inevitable self-reconciliation,” and it had to be one of the most meaningful coincidences I had ever witnessed for Peterson`s book to be called Maps of Meaning: The Architecture of Belief, which provided maps of meaning for an answer to my poem’s angry question, What the hell is going on out there?”
But professor Peterson stirred the pot with his message of self-reconciliation in his sudden bestseller 12 Rules for Life: An Antidote to Chaos, and a wicked storm was brewing in social consciousness, beginning with the Cathy Newman interview on Britain’s Channel 4 News, and it’s not about to stop. I’ve just learned that his 60 city book tour has expanded to include more cities, and his talks are really stirring the pot of social consciousness, which speaks to the message the woodpecker gave me with its strange behavior; and as impossible as it may be to believe, here’s what I think is happening with the Jordan Peterson phenomenon that’s taking the world by storm.
My inspired poem shouted loud and clear that religion, science and politics have failed to satisfy our need to know what the hell was going on in the world, and so unbearable was our need to know that life had to provide an answer, just as David Richo intuited: “Something happens in the external world and it fits exactly with what we need right now, showing that our human nature and mother nature are two sides of the same coin.”
So, along came professor Jordan Peterson to satisfy our desperate need to know what the hell was going on out there with his studied maps of meaning that he brilliantly rendered into his international bestseller 12 Rules for Life: An Antidote to Chaos; but what is it that the world so desperately needs to know? That’s the puzzling question.
Every seed must become what it is meant to be, said Carl Jung; but one doesn’t need Carl Jung to see the obvious. A tomato seed cannot become an oak tree, and neither can an apple seed become a donkey; every seed must be true to its own nature, and this is the mystery that Jordan Peterson’s message speaks to—the divine seed of our essential nature that is sown in this world to grow and evolve in its own identity; which is why the core of Peterson’s message is the sanctity of the individual self that has been so abused by the pernicious soul-denying nihilism of the world that life had to step in to redress the imbalance.
“As each plant grows from a seed and becomes in the end an oak tree, so man must become what he is meant to be. He ought to get there, but most get stuck,” said Jung (I know, I keep quoting this; but it does sum up everything about the individuation process); but why do most of us get stuck. That’s the real issue of the human predicament.
Drawing upon the wisdom in Ecclesiastes, imagine a river of individual souls flowing through life and then coming upon a dam that impedes its flow (“Vanity of vanities, saith the Preacher, vanity of vanities; all is vanity. What profit hath a man of all his labor which he taketh under the sun?”), and the river backs up and backs up and creates an immense ocean of frustrated souls longing to continue on their way to wholeness and completeness but cannot because the impenetrable dam of their own vanity holds them back, and religion, science and politics cannot open the floodgates and let them free to continue on their destined journey; and as metaphorical as this may be, this is the sad reality of the human predicament.
But some souls do manage to get free and continue on their journey, great souls like Carl Gustav Jung; and in their compassion for humanity, they inform us on how to continue our own journey to wholeness and completeness. And as presumptuous as it may be, I know that professor Peterson also found a way to continue on his journey, and in his compassion for his fellow man he’s compelled by his own imperative to share the gnostic wisdom of his way, the same wisdom of self-reconciliation that all cultures have been teaching for centuries in their myths and secret teachings that professor Peterson ferreted out in his Maps of Meaning: The Architecture of Belief, and what we have to reconcile is our outer self with our inner self, because this is the only way we can become what we are meant to be.
But we can never reconcile our outer self with our inner self until we become aware of our own shadow, the dark repressed side of our ego personality. The woodpecker saw its own reflection in our car mirror and window, but it didn’t know that it was its own reflection; and the message that life gave me with the woodpecker’s odd behavior was that our crazy modern world can see its false shadow self everywhere (the Toronto Star Washington bureau chief Daniel Dale fact-checked president Donald Trump’s tweets and utterances and found 1,075 falsehoods in the first 365 days of his administration, proof positive of Trump’s false shadow self) but cannot recognize its own false self. That’s why Jung said that it takes great moral courage to see our own shadow; which is what keeps us from getting past the dam.
And this is what the language of life was telling me with the woodpecker’s strange behavior. We can see our shadow like the woodpecker saw its own reflection, but we don’t know that it’s our own false self that we’re looking at just like the woodpecker did not know that it was seeing its own reflection (the mote in the other person’s eye, said Jesus). That’s why the Russian novelist Aleksandr Solzhenitsyn became Jordan Peterson’s hero, because he had the courage to look at his own life-lie and do something about it, as did Jordan Peterson who chronicled his own experience in Maps of Meaning: The Architecture of Belief which he rendered into his bestselling 12 Rules for Life: And Antidote to Chaos that’s taking the world by storm and consigned to be translated into forty foreign languages.
Solzhenitsyn chronicled his longsuffering experience in the Soviet Gulag and garnered the Nobel Prize for Literature, which helped bring down the Soviet empire that was founded upon the socialist lie of a utopian fantasy; and not unlike his hero, Jordan Peterson’s iconoclastic message of hope poses such a threat to the archetypal false shadow self of our crazy modern world of moral relativism, identity politics, and political correctness gone mad that he’s created a firestorm of soul-wrenching self-reflection with his gobsmacking honesty and truth-telling, and the world has taken notice. And if the second part of the woodpecker’s message augurs true, according to the shamanic wisdom of Steven D. Farmer’s Animal Spirit Guides, we will be “entering into a time of abundance and plenty.”
I sincerely hope so…









Saturday, January 12, 2019

One Rule to Live By: Be Good, Chapter 32: Dr. Peterson's Jungian Gift to the World


CHAPTER 32

Dr. Peterson’s Jungian Gift to the World

“I have, I believe, known many of those the world considered great,
but Carl Gustav Jung is almost the only one
of whose greatness I am certain.”

Jung and the Story of Our Time
—Laurens van der Post

I knew from day one why professor Jordan Peterson was called by life to answer the angry question of my poem, “What the hell is going on out there?” But I had to let my creative unconscious work it out as I wrote One Rule to Live By: Be Good and make conscious what I had intuited; and the more I got into my story, the more it became cognitively clear to me that there was a void in the soul of man that religion, science and politics could not fill, and professor Jordan Peterson was called to help fill this void with his maps of meaning, and so desperate was the void in man’s soul to be filled with meaning that his book 12 Rules for Life: An Antidote to Chaos became an overnight bestseller, with thousands of wayward young men flocking to his lectures to hear his message, like his talk in Sidney, Australia where it took four and a half hours for Jordan Peterson to sign his book for his audience.
But I had to wonder, what was it about his message that attracted so many young men to his talks and online lectures? And as I wondered, a spiritual musing that I had posted on my blog Saturday, July 15, 2017 came to mind, and I knew why—because his message had inflicted these young men with an immortal wound of wonder:

Wounded with Wonder

Three years ago I wrote The Lion that Swallowed Hemingway, a memoir which I thought would bring resolution to my lifelong fascination with Ernest Hemingway who called me to writing in high school; but apparently I wasn’t done with him yet, because on March 1, 2017 I was called to write a sequel, which I completed on June 7, 2017, a private journal called My Writing Life, Reflections on My High School Hero and Literary Mentor Ernest “Papa” Hemingway, and now I’d like to write a spiritual musing on my unique literary experience…

In her book, A Woman Looking at Men Looking at Women, Siri Hustvedt explores the question of where authors get their ideas in an essay called “Why One Story and Not Another?” And the conclusion she came to, as tentative as it may be because it seems to her that nothing is ever conclusive when it comes to the body-psyche relationship, was that “there are clearly unconscious processes that precede the idea, that are at work before it becomes conscious, work that is done subliminally in a way that resembles both remembering and dreaming,” further adding: “I argue that a core bodily, affective, timeless self is the ground of the narrative, temporal self, of autobiographical memory, and of fiction and that the secret of creativity lies not in the so-called higher cognitive processes, but in the dreamlike configurations of emotional meanings that take place unconsciously” (A Woman Looking at Men Looking at Women, pp. 388-9). And I don’t disagree with her reasoning, but with qualifications.
But why one story and not another? Why was I called to write The Lion that Swallowed Hemingway and then a sequel three years later? Why did the idea for my literary memoirs come to me when they did, and with such a compelling need to write them?
“Every good novel is written because it has to be written. The need to tell it is compelling,” writes Siri Hustvedt; but this can be said of any genre, be it novels, short stories, poetry, plays, memoirs, or personal essays like my spiritual musings: when an idea comes to me, depending upon the urgency of the need to give it expression, the compulsion is determined, and my compulsion to write The Lion that Swallowed Hemingway possessed me with such daemonic intensity that I HAD to write it just to get it out of my system, just as I was compelled to write the sequel My Writing Life.
But why? Why was I possessed by the idea to write these books? Siri Hustvedt is a novelist and essayist with cross-disciplinary interests, and her compulsion to write possesses her as it does every writer who is called to their art; and herein lies the mystery—in the call to one’s life-path, whether it be art or whatever life path, which speaks to the individual nature of one’s destined purpose…

Over coffee the other morning, Penny and I got into a discussion on this mystery of being called to one’s life-path, because it was my conviction (drawn from years of being possessed by ideas that had to be given expression through novels, short stories, poetry, memoirs, and spiritual musings, not to mention the countless books that I felt compelled to read in my quest to find my true self that spoke to this issue) that to be called is to be ready to begin the journey of self-reconciliation, and to Penny’s disconcertment, I said to her: “Not everyone is called to their life-path. I was called to writing in high school by Hemingway, but my call to writing was supplanted by a higher calling to become a seeker when I read Maugham’s novel The Razor’s Edge in grade twelve; but I was ready to be called. Not everyone is ready—”
“I don’t agree,” Penny jumped in, contending that every person is on their own path no less than any writer, artist, doctor, or whatever the discipline; and I spent the next twenty minutes of our coffee time before Penny had to get ready for work explaining that a call to one’s life-path presupposes many lifetimes of experience in one’s calling. “It took many lifetimes for Mozart to become Mozart, and the same with Albert Einstein. Reincarnational memory and genetics work together. This is the mystery of being called,” I explained, which just happened to be the preoccupying theme of My Writing Life that I had just completed; but Penny still couldn’t see it, which is why I was called to write today’s spiritual musing…

My fascination with Ernest Hemingway called me to writing in the early grades of high school, but in grade twelve our English teacher assigned our class to read Maugham’s novel The Razor’s Edge, and so moved was I by Maugham’s hero Larry Darrell’s quest for the meaning and purpose of life that I was inflicted with what professor Harold Bloom called an “immortal wound” which set my soul on fire, a wound of wonder that supplanted my call to writing and launched me on my quest for my true self; and I devoted my best and most creative energies to my quest until I found “the most precious treasure in the world,” which I finally wrote about several years ago in my most intimate memoir, The Pearl of Great Price.
Despite my call to find my true self, I never gave up on writing, and whatever energies I had left over from earning my daily living (I started my own contract painting business after I left university where my quest had taken me), desperately seeking my true self (the “pearl of great price”) by  “working” on myself with Gurdjieff’s teaching, and all the reading that I was called to do, I spent on writing; and my fascination with Hemingway grew in proportion to what he taught me about the craft of writing. He was my high school hero because he called me to writing, and he became my literary mentor because I never stopped learning from him; but my quest for my true self initiated me into the sacred mysteries of the secret way of life that parted the veil that shrouds poetry and literature, and my two callings became one.
So I owed a debt to Ernest Hemingway who called me to writing, and I owed a debt to Somerset Maugham whose novel The Razor’s Edge inflicted me with an immortal wonder; and though I thought I had resolved my obligation to my high school hero and literary mentor with The Lion that Swallowed Hemingway (in which I did my level best to shed light on his paradoxical personality), I had not done with him yet, nor had I even addressed my debt to Somerset Maugham for writing The Razor’s Edge that set my soul on fire; that’s why I was called back to Hemingway when I received an Indigo Hemingway Notebook for Christmas from Penny’s sister three years after I had written The Lion that Swallowed Hemingway, and I HAD to write a sequel and resolve my debt to these two great writers who affected the course of my life.
I would never have parted the veil that shrouds poetry and literature had I not found my true self, but the quest for the “pearl of great price” opens up pathways to one’s destined purpose; and in my journey of self-discovery so many pathways opened up to me that I finally came to see the archetypal pattern of every soul’s journey through life, which is to realize our own individual identity.
Jesus called this final stage of soul’s journey through life being born again, but this is much too abstruse for today’s scientifically-minded world, and the only way to convey the gnostic wisdom of the secret way of life would be through what Jung called “the process of individuation,” the natural course of soul’s evolution to wholeness and completeness, as Emily Dickinson implied in one of her poems—

Adventure most unto itself
 The Soul condemned to be;
       Attended by a Single Hound—
                                                               Its own Identity.

Maugham’s novel launched me on my quest for my true self; and in my quest, I discovered the secret way to the most precious treasure in the world, the secret way of self-reconciliation. Jesus called it making the two into one, our inner and outer self that psychologists call our essence and personality, philosophers call our being and non-being, and mystics and poets call our real and false self, which was a price much too dear for the shadow-afflicted Ernest “Papa” Hemingway to pay, and way beyond the reach of William Somerset Maugham who did not even believe in God or the immortal soul and afterlife; that’s why I had to write a sequel to The Lion that Swallowed Hemingway. I had to thank them both for their life-changing inspiration with the incredible story of my own conflicted journey of self-discovery.
This is the mystery that shrouds poetry and literature, the incomprehensible journey of self-discovery that we are all condemned to complete by the archetypal pattern of our essential nature, a journey that takes us through one lifetime to the next until we are made ready by life experience to take evolution into our own hands and complete what Nature cannot finish; only then will one be called to the path that will initiate them into the sacred mystery of their own identity

 I finally got Penny to see that a call to one’s path is a call to one’s own life, but a life that has evolved in its essential nature and is ready to begin its long and difficult journey of self-reconciliation; and it doesn’t matter what path one is called to—be it religion, art, science, medicine, psychology, politics or whatever; that’s the path that one has earned over the course of many lifetimes of natural evolution, the path off self-reconciliation that Socrates referred to as “soul gathering and collecting herself into herself.”
 “As each plant grows from a seed and becomes in the end an oak tree, so man must become what he is meant to be. He ought to get there, but most get stuck,” said Jung, and we all get stuck despite our best efforts. Ernest Hemingway got so stuck in his shadow-afflicted personality that he blew his brains out with his favorite shotgun because he had lost his reason for living, and Somerset Maugham got so mired in the soul-denying nihilism of his ego-driven life that he got tired of life altogether and just wanted to fade away into oblivion; but I prefer Emily Dickinson’s poetic perspective over Jung’s metaphor of the acorn seed, because it’s a little closer to the mark and a little more hopeful: we are all condemned to become our true self, and getting there is what life is all about. That’s what I tried to say in The Lion that Swallowed Hemingway, and what I tried to bring to resolution in my sequel My Writing Life, Reflections on My High School Hero and Literary Mentor Ernest “Papa” Hemingway.

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          And that’s why my oracle beckoned me to send professor Jordan Peterson my four books that amplified the secret way of self-reconciliation, The Lion that Swallowed Hemingway and The Pearl of Great Price before he became a public figure, and My Writing Life and The Merciful Law of Divine Synchronicity when he was catapulted onto the world stage; but explaining why Jordan Peterson has attracted so many followers, predominantly young men looking for meaning and purpose (Peterson is uneasy about calling them “followers,” but he can’t come up with another word that would make him risk-free of being labelled “prophet” or “guru”—or “Pied Piper” even, which he smiles at but hates) is next to impossible to do, because who has the omniscience to factor in all the variables?
But I know from my own journey of self-discovery that a message that sets one’s soul on fire with an immortal wound of wonder has to bear the Logos, the redemptive power of Holy Spirit that Jesus called the way but which I simple refer to as the omniscient guiding principle of life, and Jordan Peterson’s message, which he spells out with vernacular ease in his 12 Rules for Life: An Antidote to Chaos, is so fraught with the Logos that it has the redemptive power to connect one with their destined purpose of becoming what they are meant to be—just as Jung intuited in his own journey of self-discovery; and this is Dr. Peterson’s Jungian gift to the world, the gift of reconnecting one with their life story, their inner path to wholeness and completeness in what they are meant to be…

In Jung and the Story of Our Time, Jung’s admiring friend Laurens van der Post reveals what I believe to be one of Jung’s most important discoveries, if not the most important discovery of his long career as a healer of souls (Claire Dunne called her biography Carl Jung: Wounded Healer of the Soul, because Jung had to suffer the cleansing fire of making the two into one for the “wholeness and singleness of self” that he finally achieved), Jung’s remarkable discovery that every person has their own personal story to wholeness and completeness that can become so interrupted they end up needing help, as Jung discovered in the Burgholzli mental hospital in Zurich where he began his career—

“Jung came to the conclusion that every human being had a story, or to put it in its most evolved form, a myth of its own…Jung said that he learned from the start how in every disturbance of the personality, even in its most extreme psychotic form of schizophrenia, or dementia praecox as it was then called, one could discern the elements of a personal story. That story was the personality’s most precious possession, whether it knew that or not, and the person could only be cured—or healed, as he put it…by the psychiatrist getting hold of the story. That was the secret key to unlock the door which barred reality in all its dimensions within and without from entering the personality and transforming it. More, he held that the story not only contained an account of the peculiar hurt, rejection, or trauma, as other men were hastening to call it, but the potential of wholesome development of the personality. The arrest of the personality in one profound unconscious timeless moment of itself called psychosis, he would tell me, occurred because the development of the person’s own story had been interrupted, however varied, individual, and numerous the cause of the interruption. All movement of the spirit and sense of beginning and end had been taken away from it and the story…suddenly stood still” (Jung and the Story of Our Time, by Laurens van der Post, pp.118, 119, 120; bold italics mine).

Out of his ten-year internship at the Burgholzli mental hospital under the tutelage of Dr. Bleuler, to whom he was greatly indebted “for the encouragement he gave him as a young man and for the example he set of total respect for his vocation as a psychiatrist,” Jung grew in his deep respect and understanding of the archetypal story that ensouled every person, like the case of “a comparatively young woman” who had been sent to the asylum as “insane beyond redemption.” But after considerable effort, Jung got her to tell him one of her dreams. “From that moment on, the dreaming process in her and the interchange between them accelerated and intensified,” wrote Laurens van der Post. She progressed so well that Jung was prepared to let her back out into the world to resume her life story, which had been interrupted for reasons we may never know. And on the morning of her release, Dr. Jung asked her, “Did you by any chance dream again last night?”
“Yes, I did,” she answered; paused, and then added, “And it’s no use badgering me, because for once I’m not going to tell you what it was.”
“I cannot tell you how moved I was,” Jung told his friend Laurens van der Post. “I could have wept with joy because you see at last the dream, the story, was her own again. And at once I discharged her.”

Dr. Peterson is a clinical psychologist with twenty years experience helping his clients reconnect with their story that got interrupted—a betrayal that led to a bitter divorce; intolerable working conditions beset with political correctness gone mad; crippling depression; agoraphobia; a devouring mother who cannot let go of her daughter; whatever trauma brought them to him, Dr. Peterson did his honor best to help them reconnect with the imperative of their interrupted story to personal wholeness, just as he had learned from the “wounded healer” who beckoned the budding psychologist to take up “the study of comparative mythological material” that connected him with his own story and “cured” him of his apocalyptic nightmares (a cure he tells us in Maps of Meaning that was “purchased at the price of complete and often painful transformation”); that’s why his message has inflicted the hearts of countless followers with an immortal wound of wonder that set their soul on fire, like the young man who waited in line for four hours in Sydney, Australia just to meet the “great man” who changed his life by following his online lectures for three years before meeting him to sign his book 12 Rules for Life: An Antidote to Chaos.
“I had to look him in eyes and thank him for what he did for me,” said the young man from Brisbane, who finally secured a ticket to Peterson’s sold-out second lecture in Sydney; and he was only one out of the countless number of grateful benefactors whom our modern-day hierophant reconnected with the imperative of their inner self with his no-nonsense message of self-reconciliation by taking moral responsibility for their life—a courageous, Solzhenitsynian effort that must make the good professor proud...

Saturday, January 5, 2019

One Rule to Live By: Be Good, Chapter 31: Jordan Peterson's Fascination with Nietzsche, Dostoevsky, and Solzhenitsyn

CHAPTER 31
         
Jordan Peterson’s Fascination with Nietzsche,
Dostoevsky, and Solzhenitsyn

          In Chapter 18 of my most intimate memoir The Pearl of Great Price, “The Dust on a Butterfly’s Wings,” I wrote: “Stories bear the truth of the human condition, and the human condition is the story of our becoming; but not until we solve the riddle of our becoming will literature resolve the issue of the human condition. This makes literature endlessly fascinating, because every writer speaks to their place in the enantiodromiac process of man’s becoming, which Jung called “individuation,” and in their stories they stake out the geography of man’s soul, whether it be the happy country of one’s being, the unhappy country of one’s non-being, or that miserable place of being stuck between two countries—the no-man’s land of one’s soul.” The writers Nietzsche, Dostoevsky, and Solzhenitsyn staked out the geography of their soul in their writing, and with such passionate intensity that their work will resonate for ages; this is why the young seeker Jordan Peterson was attracted to their writing, because he too was staking out the geography of his own soul.
In Maps of Meaning: The Architecture of Belief, he recalls his youthful crises of faith, concluding that religion was for the ignorant, weak, and superstitious. “I stopped attending church and joined the modern world,” he wrote, and he turned to socialism and became active in the New Democratic Party and got his first degree in political science where he sought an explanation for “the general social and political insanity and evil of the world.” But socialism came out wanting. This was the Cold War era, and student Peterson was preoccupied by the possibility of nuclear annihilation, which literally gave him nightmares, and he concluded that the question was a psychological one; so, he sought psychological answers and earned a Ph. D. from McGill University in Montreal and became a clinical psychologist and a professor of psychology, first at Harvard and then at the University of Toronto.
In his quest for an answer to “the general social and political insanity and evil of the world,” he discovered Nietzsche, Dostoevsky, and Solzhenitsyn—and G. G. Jung, of course, who became his guiding light and abiding hero; and he studied these authors with such passionate commitment that one could call it pathological. I know that feeling well from my own need to find an answer to my question, who am I? Like he said, he was “obsessed” in his quest for an answer to his haunting question; but why did these authors have such an attraction for the budding professor and clinical psychologist? What set these authors apart from the rest of the literary world? What was their truth that set Peterson’s soul on fire?
The answer can be found in the sacred mystery of story, the archetypal imperative of soul that seeks out meaning and wholeness through individual life experience, just as I pointed to in a spiritual musing that I posted on my blog Saturday, November 11, 2017, because every person’s life story bears witness to the sacred mystery of their becoming:

The Power of Story

The idea for today’s spiritual musing hovered above my head like a heavy rain cloud waiting for the right atmospheric conditions to set its refreshing life-giving moisture free, and the right conditions came with the natural daily addition of more thoughts and insights that added to the specific gravity of the idea of my spiritual musing, the simple idea of story.
Penny and I were having coffee in my writing room early one morning, as we always do, and she put the book she was reading down and said to me, “This is boring. I’m tired of reading this kind of stuff. I’d rather read a good story instead—”
She was reading Robert Moss’s book, The Boy Who Died and Came Back, Adventures of a Dream Archaeologist in the Multiverse, an autobiographical account of his near-death and dream experiences which I had read, along with four or five of Robert Moss’s other books.
“Why?” I asked, intrigued by the abruptness of her comment, as though she had just had her fill of that kind of literature. “Why would you prefer a good story instead?”
“Because I get more out of a good story than this stuff. I don’t know what it is, but I just can’t read these kinds of books any more. I like your writing. It doesn’t bore me like this stuff, but I’d rather read your stories instead. I get much more out of a good story.”
That did it. The cloud burst and the idea for today’s spiritual musing on story possessed me with daemonic imperative, and I had to explore it…

I had just finished writing My Writing Life, Reflections on My High School Hero and Literary Mentor Ernest “Papa” Hemingway, an unexpected sequel to my memoir The Lion that Swallowed Hemingway, unexpected because the call to write this sequel came with a surprise Christmas gift of an Indigo Hemingway Notebook from Penny’s sister which called me back to creative writing that I kept putting off for one reason or another, like my book of short stories Sparkles in the Mist, my novel The Waking Dream (in which Carl Jung actually came to me in a dream to talk about “the alpha and omega of the self” and also to discuss my book The Way of Soul, which was published on the inner planes because Jung was holding it in his hands but was not yet published out here), my novel An Atheist, An Agnostic, and Me, an allegorical novel called The Gadfly, and several other works that are still waiting to be re-worked; so Penny’s comment hit home, because I could no longer hold back what I had come to realize about story upon completing My Writing Life,
I love Hemingway more for his short stories than his novels, but story is story, and a short story simply concentrates the teleological imperative of the human condition much more succinctly than a novel; that’s why I was called back to my high school hero and literary mentor with my sequel to The Lion that Swallowed Hemingway, because I could no longer put off writing the stories that have been calling me for years. But not until Penny’s comment about her preference for reading a good story over those other kinds of books, of which my library shelves are burdened, did I finally get the message; and before I jump in with both feet into creative writing, I have to explore the imperative power of story in today’s spiritual musing.
I tried one more time to draw Penny out, but she could not express why she got more satisfaction out of reading a good story than those other kinds of books that Robert Moss and Carolyn Myss and Neale Donald Walsh and Thomas Moore and Gary Zukav and Dr. Wayne Dyer and kindred inner-directed truth-seeking people have written, and I have no choice but to abandon to my muse to explore the allure of story in today’s spiritual musing; but I fear this may be a dangerous spiritual musing.
A dangerous spiritual musing dares to say the unsayable, and I hate being called to explore an idea that will take me beyond the edge of thought, because I know it will defy logic; but such is the nature of story, whose aesthetic imperative is to nourish the soul and resolve the inherent paradox of man’s dual nature. That’s the danger, because how can one expect anyone to believe that man is both real and false, that he is and is not what he is, a walking, talking paradoxical creature?
It took me a lifetime to resolve the paradoxical nature of the dual consciousness of man, the being and non-being of man’s individuating reflective self-consciousness which has been the central theme of all my writing; but it wasn’t until Penny, in her exasperation with Robert Moss’s The Boy Who Died and Came Back, blurted out that she got more out of reading a good story than those other kinds of books did it dawn on me why; and as simple as it may be, she got more out of reading a good story because story has the power to resolve the paradoxical nature of man’s dual self that those other kinds of books can only point to.
That’s a big statement. Big enough to explore in a whole book, which curiously enough I’ve already done in books like The Lion that Swallowed Hemingway, Gurdjieff Was Wrong, But His Teaching Works, and especially in my book The Pearl of Great Price; so, I need not explore it in today’s musing. My point is to explain what Penny meant by saying that she got more out of reading a good story than she did out of those other kinds of books; so, just what is it about story that satisfies this longing in one’s soul for—what? Just what is it exactly that a good story satisfies, if not personal resolution of one’s paradoxical nature?
That’s the epiphany that came to me when Penny said she got more out of reading a good story than those other kinds of books that she now found boring; but just what did she mean by those other kinds of books, anyway? And why cannot they satisfy that longing in one’s soul for resolution of one’s real and false self, soul’s longing for meaning and wholeness?
I’ve been reading those other kinds of books my whole life, ever since I was called to find my true self by Somerset Maugham’s novel The Razor’s Edge more than half a century ago, and if I were to define what Penny meant by those other kinds of books I’d have to say inner-directed books, books that address the author’s own journey of self-discovery, books like The Seven Storey Mountain by the Trappist monk Thomas Merton, Shirley MacLaine’s Sage-ing While Age-ing, Victor Frankl’s remarkable Man’s Search for Meaning, C. G. Jung’s even more remarkable “confrontation with the unconsciousthat he chronicled in The Red Book, and the incredible personal chronicle Proof of Heaven, by Doctor Eben Alexander.
The marketplace is flooded with those other kinds of books, with new ones coming out every time someone feels compelled to tell their “amazing” story of self-discovery, which often translate into self-help books of spiritual awakening, each person’s story being but another path to one’s true self little realizing that all paths lead to Rome eventually (I’m still waiting for Shirley MacLaine’s next book just to see how far her journey of self-discovery has taken her); and that’s the gist of today’s spiritual musing—the simple fact that every person’s own life is the way to the resolution of one’s dual nature, one’s personal path to wholeness and completeness. That’s the power of story that Penny intuited…

“But they all serve their purpose,” I replied to her, coming to the defense of all those other kinds of books which, incidentally, I love to read. “Those books point to the way, each according to the author’s personal journey of self-discovery; like Moss’s book The Boy Who Died and Came Back. But I guess when you’ve read enough of those books, they can get boring,” I added, assenting to Penny’s literary ennui.
“Well they bore me now. My next book’s going to be a good story,” she said, and when she finished reading Moss’s book (Penny is stubborn and will finish every book she starts, including Joyce’s ponderous Ulysses which she called “a conglomeration of words”) she came into my writing room for our morning coffee with June Callwood’s Twelve Weeks In Spring, (“…the inspiring story of how a group of people came together to help a friend, and in doing so discovered their own unexpected strength and humanity”), which she found on one of my shelves and which, ironically, bridged those other kinds of books to what Penny called a good story with the story of sixty-eight year old Margaret Fraser’s death by cancer which she did not have to face alone, because her writer friend June Callwood and a group of friends helped see her through to the end; but I have not shared this irony with Penny yet. I’ll wait until she finishes reading Twelve Weeks in Spring first; then I can share with her why a good story can be so satisfying.
 The irony of course is that life itself is the way to one’s real self; and by way, I mean the natural individuation process of man’s paradoxical real and false self—which makes every story, whether it be biographical or fictional, one’s personal way to wholeness and completeness, the only difference being that a good story satisfies soul’s longing for resolution much more than those other kinds of books that only point to resolution. That’s why when I pressed Penny again to explain why she got more out of reading a good story than those other kinds of books, she replied: “A good story pulls me in, and I experience the story as I’m reading it. Those other kinds of books don’t do that for me. They only scratch the surface.”
“That’s because a good story is about becoming, which is the teleological imperative of man’s existence. You experience your own becoming when you’re reading a good story, and this nourishes your soul’s longing for meaning and wholeness. This is why you find good stories more satisfying.”
“Much more satisfying than those other kinds of books,” Penny replied, with a note of triumph in her voice, thus bringing closure to today’s spiritual musing.

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          So, without going into detail, suffice to say that Jordan Peterson`s fascination with Nietzsche, Dostoevsky, and Solzhenitsyn can be found in the unique individual story of these heroic souls, their own personal way to resolving the dual consciousness of their paradoxical nature, the being and non-being of their reflective self-consciousness, because their commitment to personal self-resolution was all-or-nothing for them, just as mine was when I vowed to find my true self or die trying, and just as Jordan Peterson’s was in his obsessive quest for an answer to “the general social and political insanity and evil of the world,”
          But just what was it about Nietzsche, Dostoevsky, and Solzhenitsyn that has touched the soul of so many readers, especially the budding clinical psychologist Jordan Peterson? What made their personal story so different that they influenced world thinking?
Nietzsche ushered in nihilism with his death-of-God philosophy; Dostoevsky opened the gates of hell with his do-or-die inquiry into good and evil; and Solzhenitsyn dared to point the finger at himself for the evil of the world, a moral responsibility that helped bring down the Soviet empire; this is why their writing will resonate throughout history, because their work speaks to the haunting mystery of the purpose and meaning of our existence.
Still, that doesn’t explain the power of their personal story; and the only way I can even begin to explain why seeker Jordan Peterson was so fascinated with Nietzsche, Dostoevsky, and Solzhenitsyn would be to explain the enantiodromiac process of our becoming; or, what Jesus referred to as the making of our two selves into one.
Gurdjieff had a saying that reflected the premise of his teaching: “Happy is the man who has a chair to sit on, happy is a man who has no chair to sit on; but woe to the man who stands between two chairs.” This is a working metaphor. “Chair” stands for man’s soul, and Gurdjieff is saying that a man who is born with a soul is happy (because he doesn’t have to go through the torment of creating it); a man who has no soul is happy also (because he is blissfully unaware of the torment he will have to go through to create it); but a man who stands between two chairs is in the throes of creating his own soul, and this is the worst kind of suffering that one will ever experience, to which I bear witness in my memoir Gurdjieff Was Wrong, But His Teaching Work, and more definitely in my most intimate memoir, The Pearl of Great Price. So, the question is this: where do Nietzsche, Dostoevsky, and Solzhenitsyn stand in Gurdjieff’s metaphor of the soul?
Gurdjieff was wrong in his premise that not everyone is born with an immortal soul but can create one if they know how (which is why he attracted so many followers, especially intellectuals and artists); but I’ve explored this in Gurdjieff Was Wrong, But His Teaching Works. Suffice to say that his metaphor holds true regardless, because making our two selves into one is what the final journey through life is all about; and Nietzsche, Dostoevsky, and Solzhenitsyn were called to the final journey of their life, the journey to wholeness and completeness, and their story speaks to their journey of self-discovery—Nietzsche’s story, which speaks with Zarathustrian bombast to the desolate geography of man’s non-being but which ultimately drove Nietzsche insane because he failed to resolve the paradox of his being and non-being (his real and false self); Dostoevsky’s story, which speaks with creative genius to his unbearable anguish of standing between two chairs and in the throes of making his two selves into one, a monumentally heroic effort that he never got to resolve; and Solzhenitsyn’s story, which speaks to the most heroic effort of the three writers, because he came closest to resolving the paradox of his being and non-being by assuming moral responsibility for his own evil that helped to support the Soviet system that was responsible for the senseless suffering and death of millions of innocent people. That’s why Jordan Peterson is so fascinated with Nietzsche, Dostoevsky, and Solzhenitsyn; they provided him with a road map for his own journey of self-discovery, which he shared with the world in his Maps of Meaning: The Architecture of Belief, and international bestselling character-building book 12 Rules for Life: An Antidote to Chaos that has taken the world by storm…