New poem: "A Thought too Big to Even Think"

 

A Thought too Big to Even Think

 

There is something that I want to say,

but I cannot say it; it will not come

out the way I want, and I must find

a way to get it right. It has to do with

life—everything has to do with life;

but what wants to come out is terrified

of dying. It’s true what they say, writers

write what we’re afraid to think, but

this thought’s too big to even think: life

is divine, it is perfect, and it naturally

manifests the will of its creator, and all

paths in life lead to the thought that there

is nothing but the self and God, and it

presses upon me with tired vengeance. I

try and try to get it out—one more poem,

one more story, one more novel; but it

forever eludes my precious muse,

and renders me silent.