New poem: "Falling in Love with Life Again"

 

Falling in Love with Life Again

 

I wonder now what my life would be like,

had I not taken the path I did that set

my soul free of all the doubt and anxiety

of my belief system, of heaven and hell

and my life in between; —

 

And I wonder now what my life would be like,

had I not crossed the Atlantic on an ocean liner

to live in France where I had lived before

as le salaud de Paris, awakening forgotten

memoires of my sordid past; —

 

And I wonder now what my life would be like,

had I not awakened the Coiled Serpent while

meditating on a maple leaf in Annecy,

which set my mind on fire and tore my life

apart with untamed desire; —

 

And I wonder now what my life would be like

had not serendipity introduced me to the sly

man’s teaching while studying philosophy

at university, which opened up the secret

way of dying before dying to me; —

 

And I wonder now what my life would be like

had the way not possessed me to walk away

from the halls of academia to live my life

in absentia for years, paying back my soul’s

debt and falling in love with life again.